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I was Hoping this would never happen.... not this soon
Saturday July 19th, 2014, the Saturday that i wish i could turn back time and never relive that night EVER again. ..My two bros walked in my room when i was drawing some collabs/gifts or something to post here, getting ready to go downstairs to see Mom and Dad, watch some tv like every Saturday. They told me that the paramedics here were, and wanted me to stay upstairs. I knew right then and there something was wrong. But they didn't want me to see everything like that..They said they revived her and rushed her to the hospital . Just the thought of it brought me to tears..and then i rushed down stairs, saw the chairs out of place.....later that night after our walk, getting ready to go on the tablet, My dad came home, and i was hoping Mom was okay, i thought was going to spend the night at the Hospital. He gathered us around, and told us that "she's gone"..I said " What.." holding my hands as if i dropped something. And screamed as loud as i could, i hurt my self, and got unimaginable pain on my sides. I didn't see her, My two Oldest Brothers did, but in the worst way imaginable.
Ever since I've had mixed emotions, of Anger me wanted to destroy things, sadness crying alot to where i couldn't talk, guilt felling there could've been more done...when really.....yea, worry of life, my brothers, and mostly my Dad. friends came by and gave their condolences, NUMEROUS of family called, being i have a gigantic ridiculous, insane amount of family members. But to me this is still a horrific shock. Knowing that she passed away hurts me, and nothing is the same anymore. I feel everything is disorder..it's uncomfortable., something wrong.. This can't be real. It just can't be. I appreciate everything i have, literally everything but still...
But i still came time from time see her, i still feel her presence, i can sometimes hear her. I remember all the times we spent from the shortest walks to longest travels. I never been through this before, and i can't explain this well, as i should, i feel empty, saddened, and guilty. I Felt as if there was more we could have done. And i am scared of what will go on from here . I don't know what to do, i'm scared, i'm terrified. But i will keep moving, and i will find normacy and become stronger as i can be and carry on. Keep doing what i love and enjoy, such as Art and make something out of it if i can. Because that is what she always wanted. For me to stay strong and be me, and let NO ONE tell me what to do, and how to run my life. And the family stay together and help each other every step of the way, as she watches over us.
My Mom was a Mom to many more than just us, she was a fighter, and a strong one. She would let Nothing Get in Her way. She took care of me, My Dad, and my brother, giving us strength, love, happiness, even through hardest times she would do all she could, and we would do all we could in return.. You can't find another Woman like her. Not this strong, not this beautiful, and not this truthful. Even going through that pain, She told me and my brother as clear as she could that one morning "I will fight this to the bitter end". And that she did. She fought to the very bitter end. And we were with her every step of the way, honered her wishes and everything.
There is so much to say, but i don't know how put it. But Anything that is true is that She will always be in our heart and i will always love her as much as she was here. She is no longer suffering, in pain and she's in peace now.
In Peace away from this cruel and sickening world I Love You Mommy And i always will, i still feel you're here with us. Yor presence. I and everyone else will always think about you. I Pray God Will take care of you like you have taken care of many (she always liked cute things)